2013 in review

What have been good this year? 

- Super show 5 

- I've read 10 books which was my goal of 2013.

10 books are almost nothing but that's just as a commencement! I'll set a higher number for 2014 and of course try to read more often during free time and non-free time.

- I'm 70% sure what I am going to do after high school but I haven't made a plan B if plan A fails.

- I've been able to speak up my mind more.
- Started to watch anime and read manga. 
It's very bad for many people but I think it is good to me since it inspires me a lot. And made me procrastinate a lot too...

- Been able to open my heart more to new people. 

Downsides:

- I don't know the precise period but I've gained the habit to not finish my sentences at all. I end with 1-2 words missing at the end of the sentences. I either finish it with an extremely long pause or don't finish it at all. I don't know why, the only conclusion I've come up is I've been aware of my language which makes me immensely insecure. 

- my arrogance has been perceptible.

- I cuss more than ever (I hope I'll break through my habit next year)
- Been extremely bias towards people.

- This is inappropriate but I'll just express my anger here too. This year I've come to grow the disfavor towards a relative. Whenever I see her, I'd run away as far as I can. Exceeding my record in running!

I'm currently happy with the people around me yet I don't feel satisfied which I should. I somehow feel I can't convey my feelings to the right person. 
Let's just go straight to the point; I am deeply grateful for the people who have always been by my side in the situation when I really needed support. There are people who have been giving me support even from far away. From children to adults. Of course the adults had the biggest impact since they're experienced. 

I really don't have anything in particular to converse with the adults, yet I treasure our chats a lot and put it in my memory like you'd patiently put something fragile and important in a treasure chest.

Expextancy of 2014:

The first period of 2014 will probably be an extremely good period since it is my third year and the bond between the classmates have been so much better. The last period was fun and I just can't imagine when the preparation for the graduation and all these upcoming excursions with the class will just be so fun! 

People say their graduation day was the best day in their life, they want to graduate again and etc. I can't wait to experience the fun myself. It'll be an unforgettable year. If we exclude the exams, oral presentations and etc.

My instincts are telling me the summer is going to be great too since I've come to realize how important it is to preserve the friendship (though I've a feeling at the same time I won't do anything). If I'm going to travel during the summer, it'll be even greater. Let's pray something bad won't occur in the middle of my freedom.

Yet I feel the worse will come after summer also equals as I'll suffer immensely once again. Need to gather more strength in order to prevent the walls to not break for the fall.

Happy new year everyone :)